I have had so many magnets andÂ receivedÂ a thousand cards that boreÂ proclamationsÂ about living life ,but I never knew how to put those words into action.
It takes so much energy to stop, to slow down to manage the feelings that come along with blind faith.
You can't just decide to be different, you have to do something to be different.
The process is usually really uncomfortable. You have to do something that you've never done before andÂ believeÂ that it will be better. Usually you don't even have proof that it will be better, you justÂ knowÂ that what you've been doing has not worked thus far.
For a long time, changeÂ happened only when the pain of not changing, became greater than the pain that my fear of changing caused.
I would have to change the action and sit with the feelings that came along with the "not doing"
I once heard a girl ask "what would I have to feel if I stopped all of this compulsive behavior?"
For me it's peace. Not at first; at first I feel the compulsions.Â TheÂ compulsions to fix, to run, to judge to move but as I sit still, I change the action. For when I sit still i might not be doing anything to make the situation better, but I'm definitely not making it any worse. And sometimes that's the most spiritual, humane, thing to do.
The spirituality is the action and the action is the pause.