Â a fear of success for me. It feels exactly the same. I want to control it, Â I want to keep in the air, I want to keep it from crashing.Â I want a direct flight. Â I dont want any turbulence. I don't want delays I want the service to be impecable. I want first class.Â I want a pillow, i want to sit by the exit sign so i can get outÂ quick.Â I want to be completely comfortable so i have no fear suspended in the airÂ like that. Â All my life i have had this dream about a plane not being able to take off or it takes off and lands right away. I have had success in my life before but, I coudln't feel it and i think becauseÂ I couldnt feelÂ ,Â I couldn't sustain it.Â Â My Past kept creeping up and pulling me down, or my interpretation of the past. Â It felt like everytime something good happened something bad would happen.Â And because i believed that, I manifested it; or found eveidence to make itÂ appear true.Â Â I unconciouslyÂ decided not to have any good things happen.Â Â But that didnt workÂ either because i had created my own living grave. I was doing nothing, for fear that somethingÂ bad would happen. ThenÂ i was stuck with the dilema of not being personallyÂ satisfied, so i had to learn to dig outÂ my pastÂ and let it go.Â Â I had to realize that Â Good things were there for the taking all alongÂ but i chose not to pay attention to the bad.Â I had to ask my self honestlyÂ how am i going to fly if i can't let go? Â Â A plane cannot take off if there is too much baggage right? Â Or it takes off and crashes.Â Â I thoughtÂ I was supposed be able to let go of all my fear butÂ Â But a plane doesn't Â completely let go, you have to have a sound info structure to hold you. I tried surfing last summer and i was so freaked out by the strap you had to put around your leg. I almost didn't surf because i thought it would get in my way. I overcame my fear of the strap and got on my belly and rode the wave for a few minutes until a wave hit me and i tumbled. My surfboard went flying but not far because i had it attached to my foot.Â I felt like a million bucks all day because it felt so good to let go andÂ to come to terms with the strap around my leg.Â I realized that thing that iÂ thought was getting in my way, was the exact thing that was making it safe enough for me to surf.Â I GET IT!!!Â Flying isn't always comfortable but the rewards are amazing because it gets you to a different destination than when youÂ started. Â Fear is there for a reason and you can use it in a healthy way to supportÂ your flight.Â Feel the fear and do it anyway!!!!!!!!