..but i get up again. The other day i was on a great clip with my career, feeling really good and I got a phone that one of my friends was in the hospital and they didn't know if he was going to make it through the day.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
I have had bad news before but something about that phone call, that idea that I could get another one telling me either he's gonna live, or he's gonna die.
I was so uncomfortable the entire day. I was prickly if you will.
It's east for me to go on every day spouting my thoughts and beliefs about hope, but it is times like these where faith is tempted.
I always think to myself when I am in pain, don't make anything worse.
Whether or not the pain is inflicted by a person or an event the pain is still the same.
Being able to tolerate it without taking it out on someone else is the test that i always give myself.
My friend turned the corner and is going to be ok.
That's the phone call i got, Instead of the other one.
I am just starting to get my bearings back today and it's almost a week since i got the news.

Okay u wanna hear CRAZY an earthquake just hit the East Coast, as I'm writing about getting knocked down.

My book shelves were shaking, I was on the phone with my friend and i felt the apt shake then a few minutes later I saw the book shelves shaking.

So, I ran down the stairs outside and the people there didn't feel anything.


Just goes to show you, what affects one person might not affect another person.

That being said i am affected by everything all the time, I'm sitting here scared right now and my first thought is "don't make anything worse"

And as for me as is for my friend we are hopeful because as long as there is breathe there is hope.

We get knocked down, but we get up again. even tho is might take a few days to re group.