I read once that Tony Robbins said, that most people quit five miles before the finish line. I'm not a big Tony Robbins person, but I am a big believer in taking what you like and leave the rest, and I have to say, I identify with that statement. It seems like happiness and success is something that would come easy and feel comfortable. I have found the opposite to be true. I feel like the closer I get to my dreams coming true that the anticipation is so great, I feel like I could go to bed forever.

The pressure right before hand feels unbearable. As I'm writing this it makes me think about what it must feel like when you are giving birth.  I have never had a baby, but I'm guessing that after 9 or 10 months, the fear of the pain would be overshadowed by the need to get the baby out.

But then, while in labor the contactions must be so unbearable that you just want to stop. But there is no stopping, becuase the birth process had begun and there is no turning back.

I feel that way about life and destiny. You cant's stop it, but we can help with the contractions.  It's not until the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing, do we change. And even then, we have road blocks and obstacles.

I am completely fascinated with the idea of self sabotage. I have experienced it myself and I've been on the receiving end of someone else's.

If I had to describe it in two words, they would be self hatred.  I think that inside a lot of  us feel that we don't deserve even the basic of ours needs to be met.

So, when we get close to manifesting what is in our hearts, our mind gets in the way and takes us down. Because just like when you are pregnant, it 's the time in your life that meeting your basic needs and taking extra care of yourself is essential. For me, it' s the only way to keep myself from acting out over the uncomfortable feelings.

Life is like running a marathon. You need to go slow and steady because if you go really fast out of the gate you will burn yourself out. And even when you go slow you have to deal with the pains of self hated that come up. Just like when you get a pain in your side. You have to breathe through it.

And when you cross the finish line, you begin training for the next one.